Asking yourself what would have been if, has never led to the desired result. In my case, due to my illness with alopecia areata (round patches of hair loss) since I was six years old, much of my growing up focused on the one topic, the outside: „His hair is falling out“. During my medical examination for the Military the Doctor in charge came to me and said i would be discharged. After i asked why, the doctor said: „Because you have no hair, Sir. Sit down, the papers will be here soon.“
The Self-Portraits are a reflection of me who could have done this service to become some kind of man, thinking about what would have i become if i had hair. I don‘t know exactly who these men are myself, but it could have been me.